Total sympathies to the Paul of 1998 for that woman problem - really do recommend pragmatism in that sort of situation. I really do believe you can fall in love with the wrong person, and I don't think we have sufficient discernment to find the right person anyway, so the only sane thing to do is let go and let God. My main action towards finding a woman (should I be meant to have one!) is to try to work with God on improving my character so that I'm mature enough (and self-controlled enough) to handle having a girlfriend.
Geoff Jackson at New Life told me today that some people have been talking about me, saying nice things about me moving on in God and stuff. Quite nice of them really, and of him for telling me, but really it's only what God thinks that matters. I wonder if it would stop people throwing me out of church when I finally say too many things they don't like? Makes me think of Palm Sunday, really - sorry to be so cynical, it was very nice of you anyway, whoever you were.
Ian mentioned purity of thoughts in his sermon today - kind of struck me because a lot of mine aren't. I tend to have pretty violent daydreams based on films and things, which would be blinkin' embarassing if people could see them. So I think purity of thoughts is something to focus on for a bit
Just for the record, I got a job last week, at a firm called Vedas. I'm supposed to be an administration assistant but I've been working with computers instead, which is fun. Everyone's really nice. I've started having lunch with Shabir (may have misspelled his name) who I'm learning web design from. He believes in God but not in any particular religion - I had a brief chat about Christianity with him. Ended up mentioning my beliefs to Dina and Jaynie too, the girls who started when I did. Fairly sympathetic reaction, especially from Jaynee, but no apparent interest in applying it to their lives or anything. Hope they all get saved in the end - it's horrible to think of anyone going to hell, especially people you know. I think I forget sometimes how incredible salvation is - worth more than anything else I could possibly want. I wouldn't trade God for anything!