Monday 1st January

4:00 in the morning. Said goodbye to Phil - don't think it's really hit me yet that he's going. Surely it was my turn to leave this time?

On an unrelated note, have again been struck by how much the human race sucks compared to God. What would we know about keeping promises if he hadn't taught us? What would we know about kindness? Mercy? Patience? We were made in his image, so we do begin with some understanding of these things, but very little remains to us without his help. Am beginning to feel a little lonely on the front lines - if indeed I'm even there. But it's not scary - I don't know what I can do, I seem quite ineffective in many areas, but I will not stop, slow down, give in or compromise if I can help it - or rather, if God can help. God'll sort it.

I'm very tired - this may be a little incoherent.

Me and Gary should be looking into martial arts possibilities this week - aiming for Ju-jitsu on a Monday night, if possible. It's something I'd quite like to do.

That's it - I'm off to bed. G'night!