Went A.W.O.L. yesterday. Disconnected all telephones and switched off mobile. Don't want to go into all reasons, but basically I was getting close to nervous breakdown area again - or what I assume to be that area, not having ever gone all the way! Definitely too highly strung anyway - didn't actually get as bad as last time, but I'm not really over it now, although I do feel better. Just not much right now because I'm about to go out, and there's a chance I might have explanations demanded of me - and having things demanded of me is what seems to have brought it on. Anyway, will have to try to seriously change the way I'm living - try and cut down again! We'll see....
The actual reason I'm going out is that some of the Rock Solid guys (guys not just meaning blokes in Tom language - refers to both sexes) are playing five-a-side football at Barden High School - not at all stressful in itself (I hope) - I am shaking a bit at the thought of going though! Will be all right though - I'm pretty confident of having more than enough energy (or strength, or whatever) now to cope with whatever happens, just not quite as invincible as usual! But at least I haven't been vinced! Seriously, if I hadn't gone A.W.O.L. yesterday there's no way I'd be up to this, which is why I think it was the right thing to do.
Was considering getting some orange chocolate penguins (if such a thing exists) as 'half-time oranges', but it occured to me that when you're thirsty, that sort of thing is the last thing you want! I can't really afford it, anyway! And there's no time, assuming it's happening at 2:00 (which I'm hoping is right - not sure). Better get moving - hope people don't expect too much from me today - still a bit shaky here! But it'll probably be fun....might take a camera, actually......hmmm.....yep, won't hurt - I don't have to use it! Wonder if I have any new batteries?
I'm off, anyway - and Tom, if you're reading this (which you will be at some point) watch how much you're doing, 'cause if you overdo it you won't be any help to anybody!