Went to hospital yesterday, and am now on new course of treatment (for spots). Pretty large list of possible side effects - I'm going to get eczema, may get muscle pains, and could possibly become depressed. Might even go bald! And there's lots of others too - nearly all very unlikely, but mildly alarming....
Somewhat thoughtful after brief conversation with Jennie - thinking about how I don't get gushy feelings about children. I know of plenty of children who I like, generally ones who are old enough to talk back when you talk to them, and I never had any problem with Stephanie even when she didn't, but I don't feel any particular wish to have children of my own. I don't really understand why I should want to - there's plenty of people about, why the need to make more? I don't have enough resources to help all the people who currently exist anyway! But apparently this point of view is abnormal - unless other people aren't wholly honest. Or I could be wrong myself of course - never fully sorted out my feelings in this area, probably 'cause it's perhaps mixed-in slightly with the relationships stuff, which I tend to avoid thinking about too much except to pray....
Hmmm...
Been reading 'Crime and Punishment' by Fyodor Dostoevsky - it's slow-moving but good, and has a very accurate portrayal of the experiences of a man suffering from mental problems.